may he rest in peace

it breaks my heart a 1000 that he left
it feels like fire in my chest
I wish it is me not him
he is a son , husband , brother , father , grandfather & a friend
the lost is huge
more than my mind can handle
I cant belive it yet , how can they
I cant hundle it or control my tears how can they
I never wished someone to be my father as much as him </3
he was a perfect man allah yr7mah
like no one I knew & I dont think there is a man like him
I really cant discribe their lost
nothing in this world describe their pain
nothing can make them feel better
nothing I can do to make it easier
it's hard like .....
two days ago I was talking to she5a & he was playing with her
kissing and jaggling her
today he is t7t alrml fi 8brah
ams he was sleeping in his bed
today he is there , where there is no one , in that place
ya allah t5ff 3 shwie5 o ahlha ya rb </3
I cant stop crying or thinking
being very close to her makes me feel some of the pain that shes having
& It makes me think if im feeling so shes 1000 time worse
I loved him as my father just by being his daughter friend
aaaah ya 8lbiiiii
ya rb 9brhm ya rb 9brhm ya rb 9brhm
ya rb shl 3lehm o ajbr 8lobhm 3 fra8h ya rb
I swear to god I have never wished to be dead this much ala that day 1/6/2009
11/11/2010 </3
yaa rb laish ta5th always good ppl & leave us in this world full of bad ppl
I just wish if I was dreaming O i wake up o find it was a nightmare
ya rb ajbr b5aa6rhm ya ar7m alra7meen