It's hard to deny the pain that covers me every night while I go to sleep
woking up to put makeup to hide it
paint to express it
laugh to not cry
seconds comes throw my eyes like days
& words repeat them self as they were a song
funny
when beautiful things that u have felt makes you the saddest ever
in fact
they cant make me swallow the food
sometimes it makes me num
& not aware to whats around me
It's hard to forget
or to forget the feeling
& it's even harder to replace the feeling
cuz I know deep down it's wrong
and somehow it's also hurting someone else
life isnt easy
and mine till now is full with pain
it's like I have this glass full of pain and nothing else to drink
and I drink from it between a while & then
I remember being happy at some point
when I shut that door & throw that key in the sea
but yet happiness wasn't made for me
"it's weird , he didn't want me to be happy ether with him or with out him & he made every single thing to make miserable for the rest of my fucking miserable life & when I was happy just knocked me till I dropped "
I know deep down that i'm not in the right road , yet I don't now what is my right road anyway .
I always keep asking my self , where did I went wrong , what were my mistakes , blaming my self all the time & knowing that I deserve it cuz I always take the wrong decision to end up with the unhappy ending .
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